u like stand up comedy?

Anjelah Nicole Johnson

she's good...

released in 2007...

one of my top 5 bedtime movie selection

watched it this morning around 4am.... I love love it....

the readings...

"next few years" - "sleeping" - "push"

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hihihihi.... u understand ah??

*chuckle

break time...

- @ uncle lim's -

i wish....

I don't know what to do...

I don't know what's in your mind...

I don't know what is next...

why is it so difficult...

I can't breathe...

I wish I knew what to do with you...

I wish I could read your mind...

I wish I knew what's next...

I wish it could be simpler...

still can't breathe...

my saturday morning...

I went to bed this morning around 5am. Yeah.. Late huh.. well, I'm used to it. working late! Of all the time, ideas always come around this hour like nobody business.

anyway... i fell asleep as soon as i laid on my fav. spot.. then… not long after that. I think I HEARD my alarm..? or my ringtone..?? hmmm not sure coz I was in my la-la-land..

Wokey, so I got up at 10:57am. The alarm just couldn’t leave me in peace! Ok Ok! Turned it off! Stop snoozing already!!

Few minutes later, AGAIN! Eeeeee…. W.T.F!

Ok FINE! I’m soooooo awake now! Checked out my pda. Hmmm… missed call at 6am. hmmm... It’s 11:15am now.. why would they call me around this hour? 6am is sooo early for breakfast right….?? Then i started to worry coz I know that they went clubbing in KL last night..

So I returned the call immediately.. wokey.. no answer… then called the hubby… hmmm… no answer.. my heart started to race even faster.. nevermind, I rang another very close friend. He’s always with them anyway. Damn.. there’s no answer too. Wokey…. Eeeeee what happened!! so I text her instead. And 20 minutes later. She called back.

“hey V. I’m in Uni hospital.”

OMG OMG OMG

DF, DB and CF got into accident this morning around 430am in KL. No, they were not drunk. They were *longkai-ing around KL before heading to Subang after late supper and they were extremely slow like 40km/hr. It was 4:30am, not many cars around. In fact, their's were the only car at that time it happened so fast, out of nowhere a car from the opposite street lost control, turned 360 and BAM!! Head to head. DB was driving and tried to avoid (of course) and DF, a big size guy was at the backseat and during the accident, he flew to the front and hit the dashboard and CF was unconscious due to the hard impact from DF. I think. Apparently they said that the unknown lady driver was feeling sleepy… hmmm…. sure or not…? well.. I dunno la… I always drive sleepy but if I really can’t help it. I'd stop at the side of the road oooor any petrol station.. ALWAYS! or simply 're-charge' myself.. =P

Owell… thank God everybody is ok. No serious injuries. The boys were discharged on the same day.

Haiyaaaa…. What luck this month… damn U october..

*longkai - driving around to check out if there's any accident coz they're in the towing car "activity"

"P.S I love you"

i cried and cried and cried everytime I watch this




ohhh.... how i heart them

"the accidental husband"

jeffrey dean morgan

u like him??

then watch him here...

two thumbs up from me!!

too advance sometimes... but silly

Youth, Sex and doing business

by D.Z

"It was halfway through the soiree when two young women appeared at our tiny table. We initiated small talk but they looked at us blankly.

A newly-made male acquaintance whispered to me that the two young women were 16 years old, and were there to look for rich boyfriends. No, they were not working girls. They went to a school nearby.

The two butterflies then moved on to flit on a more prosperous table, filled with laughter and cigar smoke. In a matter of minutes, they were well acquainted with the men.

Women hunting for rich men as husbands or paramours are nothing new. Growing up, there were a few girls in class who aspired to be that: wives of rich men.

But still, as I sat in a corner, observing the two young women, whiling their youth away, as they flirted with the men, and were grabbed at by their newfound companions, I wondered to myself, why, why weren’t these girls at home?"

read more here @ the star

*if it's my children... I'll give one HUGE thundering slap...

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everything is ok now...

hehe... yes... everything is ok now. Normal la.. skejap ok..skejap tak ok...what a relationship huh... As usual, I created the problem coz it's too calm. So I said something stupid and made them fed up and now I might be going home (KK) alone this Christmas.. hmmm… maybe.... not confirm though. Still can kautim on that. I was just wondering ma.. so now... hmmm.... dunno.. see how it goes.. eeeeee that is why I didn't want to create a blog.. I tend to expose all this kind of shits.

Anyway, two days ago daddy was in town. I can’t remember the last time I saw him, I miss him so much. So excited, not sure about SK and CK coz they went back home last month. When we finally reached Seri Pac., KL around 8pm something, (Rain + 7pm = Jam giler) first thing first, daddy asked “ok. mana ada babi sini?” hihihi…. see… before that, when we were getting ready at home, we asked each other where to makan. I was very sure daddy wants to go to his fav. restaurant and these two girls said go for bahkuteh.. hmm…. (Tu la kamu tidak percaya sia… )

So we went there, “Oversea something Restaurant”. It took us about half an hour to reach there. After turning to every familiar exit coz now, almost every jalan in KL is ONE WAY! Stupid shit! Ok back to the restaurant….. We makan la. Unfortunately, no pictures coz we were sooo hungry. No time to snap-snap. (Hmmm too bad dude) Two thumbs up for the dinner! Well, they never disappoint me. Myself and daddy even ordered each another bowl of rice (BIG one), licin lagi tu.. haiya..never gain also!! Dammit!! and then.. the rest of the stories, what else but to gossip!.. (hehehe…ONLY family matters) yeah sometimes I’m surprised that daddy actually noticed all those stuff that happens in the house.. He diam diam… limpang limpang… actually he’s observing.. So.. pandai pandai la kamu ah..

Then while eating, daddy received a call, his friend finally called up after few hours he waited at the hotel for a meeting. Eeeee…. I actually swallowed whatever I can... And then, thought the rain has stopped. NO. Even worse! Luckily we brought umbrella with us. I was a lil “stressed up” (kononnya la) coz we basically have to FLY back to Seri Pac. Thinking which exit to follow... Jalan Bukit Bintang to Jalan Sultan Ismail.. hehehe… yeah yeah… for years in KL but it doesn’t mean I know all the roads here and not forgetting they’ve changed certain route to one way street.. so one more time.. stupid shit!! But luckily I remembered coz CJ showed me a few times where to go. Heeeeee…… but still I entered the wrong way. Boo hoo!!

“Nooo…this way to go back to Beach Club.. now we have to go back to HardRock… so it’s the other way… “

haiya…. OK fine! I made one BIG round + with the jam and traffic lights.. (eeeeee bikin panas) but it’s ok… focus focus.. then we’re back at the same spot, this time everything is ok… until we passed HardRock which is still under renovation.. =\ (but that's beside the point)

“eh.. which traffic light already?”

“not this one..the next next one…” then tekan minyak some more la...speeding all the way...celup left and right..

“ok..this one ah?..”

“mmm….. wait ah.. “ but I already reached at the end of the traffic light! I slowed down at green light.. and OMG! I main turning only!!! It’s a ONE WAY street! And GREEN LIGHT… cars were coming from the opposite direction! OMG! Well… here I'm exaggerating la.. it wasn’t that scary shit! But in my heart actually I'm bitching to myself.. coz I knew I made a mistake.. thank God the car slowed down and even if they're bitching at me.. I won't get to hear it... hehehe… if it were me.. I would've said “stupid bitch!”and honk like nobody's business

Ok. It’s not over yet.. well, we survived. Then we went straight, and....

“hmm…. damn.. I think it’s the next traffic light…” *chuckle

Ohh… daddy and CK diam diam only… or mumbling.. SK and I were busy finding the way.

“ok. Go left here..then go right there..” so I turned here and turned there..

“hmm… next? I think it’s this way…”

“I’m not sure… maybe… hmmm…” so I just turned..

“u sure it’s correct?”

“yes.. see the hotel there right in front of us.. now how to go there..”

“hihihi…so far yet so near… eh terbalik… so near yet so far…”

“dunno… we'll find the way…”

Muahahhahaha… we reached our destination after 10 minutes than originally planned.. oopsie… sian daddy… hahahahha… we’ve been to these places like thousand times.. masih tidak ingat ingat! O.M.G!

As usual, we opted for valet parking… hihihi… All are continental cars!!! Ours is the only Myvi there... sedihhhhnya.. nasib baik SK ada cuci kereta...

So, next mission, where to “re-charge”?? Obviously we couldn't go to lobby coz that’s where daddy will be with his friends. Outside? Hmmm too many familiar faces. So up to 13^th floor then. In the lift, we’re like “wahhh…wah….” (like sakaion) Coz we could see everything outside on the way up. Which is cool.

Ok. In the room. Hmmm…. Nice.. but the window was locked. So.. last option have to re-charge at the lift lobby. Hehehe… we planned if anybody came, we would act like we’re waiting for the lift. Hihihihi….. and we noticed there’s a camera at the corner, so I waved... =P

Ok. Re-charged! Back to the room again….

this is what happened when there's no parental units

as usual... she's always ready with her pose...

snapped snapped snapped

weird... Seri Pac., KL doesn't have a mini bar.... how come ah.. so...we limpang limpang.....

(ape tu limpang limpang... baring baring la....)

nice...

ok la. finish... then 12am something balik.... sob sob...

so long one.....

gee...

gee... did i say something that doesn't make sense at all...??

hehe.. well... it does to me...

again....

move on babe....

muahhh muahhh

girls... love you.. hug hug

you don't have to get me..

You probably won’t understand what I’m about to grumble here. You might not get it AT ALL.. or… you might get it… but it doesn’t really matter.. so…. hear my thoughts…or not...

*deep breath

I used to know what to think, what to feel, what to say and I think, I used to know what and when to worry about and I think I did everything perfectly. I think…

Ok maybe not entirely perfect coz U and I know that no one is, correct? But it’s alright. I know. No one is flawless except Him.. maybe not too.. I don’t know. Let’s not go there ok.…. whatever…. let’s make Him the one and only flawless la. Move on…

Anyway, there’s a time I just simply don’t feel like it. Sometimes I don’t feel like talking. Sometimes I don’t show. Sometimes I don’t care. I don’t care what people might think. Who could possibly honestly ever cares what others might think right.. at the end of the day, whether you, yourself want or not, you’re in or out. Yes or no. kan? Ok most of the time we human just close one eye and bear with it. Ok fine.

Even so, it does not mean that I STOP being how I always am or what I’m supposed to be. Hold on… hold on… supposed to?? See even that I question myself. “Supposed to??” How about NOT supposed to?? Will I be in trouble? Will I end up with nothing or…. gain something instead?? I don’t know. but still, I never stop being how I always am. the one that always put everything aside and please them. always. ish... koto.. kenapala...

*sigh - I don’t understand my head! Betul ni… I don’t get it..

Woookey… you don’t get me do you. Of course you don’t =) coz got censorship ma.. well, you’re not supposed to get it coz I don’t get myself either… at this very moment.. I’m f-ing seriously don’t get it!

It’s just that things are too ok and too quiet. Now that’s a problem. Isn’t that silly?

Or do I actually have one? *thinking again

When Cigarettes become toooo expensive‏

budu....

never ending tags

[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?
- used to.. sometimes... yeah...

[02] Have you ever been given roses?
- yup. so nice.. fake one also got.. =P

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
- if only - Jennifer Love Hewitt - watched it first time from the middle of the movie and i cried like mad....

[04] Had a Long Distance Relationship?
- decade ago.. didn't work. and now... hmmm......

[05] Do you believe in this saying-What goes around comes around?
- ohhh yessss...

[06] Do you want to get married?
- one fine day

[07] How many kids do you want to have?
- beribu ribu lemon... can ah...

[08] Whats your favorite color(s)?
- green

[09] Who was the last person you held hands with?
- nobody... sad huh

[10] Do you believe in love at first sight?
- if its brad pitt..of course...

[11] Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
- yes again and again... it's been 3 months now... =(

[12] At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?
- hmmmm

[13] Do you like anyone?
- i liiiike....

[14] Do you know someone who likes you?
- dunno... i'm ok what..so i don't think there's any reason not to like me..

[15] Do you love anyone?
- yes...

[16] Do they know you like/love them?
- yup..

[17] Why did you and your most recent ex break up?
- recent break up? no recent one.. decade ago yes..

[18] When did you two last speak to one another?
- hmmmm.....

[19] Would you get back together with your ex?
- i dont think so..

[20] What comes to your mind when you think of love?
- depends on current mood... now i feel love is empty...

[21] Is there anyone who knows you inside and out?
- i think so... ??

*sigh

i thought.....

hear my thoughts -

i thought being a designer is FUN - i was wrong. sucks BIG TIME

reason:
hot. dusty. makin hitam. no time for myself. almost 24/7 infront PC drawings can't finish. everytime my phone ringing like non-stop. thinking alot. fed up. tension. rushing. i don't have time to watch my fav. series. no time to baring baring. can't sleep. etc etc

but still i do it with all my heart. cos at the end of the day. i feel damn good for the outcome. MOST of the time. and i tell myself.. "mmm...not bad" and i get my paycheck of course.. hehe..

so.. i'm not sure what i'm complaining about and what i wish for and bla bla bla.. but that's what i'm thinking right now.

partner in crime

*have yourself a merry little christmas... let your heart be light....

so sad this song... i miss home already....